I remember watching a documentary on the special forces, I forget their actual real world name but they were a military group that accepted very few people each year. In order to be accepted you had to pass several tests and trials over, I believe what was, a six week period.
This morning I got up really early after a decently late night. I jumped into the shower and something became very clear to me… I wasn’t wearing clothes?!? No, what became clear to me was that my ability to feel good and function to my full ability was decreased due to the lack of sleep.
Back to the documentary, one of the first tests these potential soldiers had to pass was a series of sleep deprivation exercises followed by different mental tests. They would have to try and fall asleep to heavy metal music being blasted out of speakers surrounding the camp. However, the speakers wouldn’t always be on, they would shut off just long enough for the soldiers to start to fall asleep and then suddenly would be turned on again. On top of that, on random occasions they would have to get up at all hours of the night and go do drills outside. From running long distances to crossing ice cold rivers all while deprived of sleep. As this was happening the drill sergeants would taunt them, they would try to get inside their heads with thoughts of doubt and discouragement.
This went on for awhile, and quickly the number of recruits dropped further and further. Some time went on and test after test, after test, after test, the camera started to follow around this one man. He wasn’t someone that showed to be a leader at the beginning or even someone that stood out. He wasn’t the strongest or the fastest, however, after weeks of drills people started to pay attention to him. As people around him were falling he would go to them and tell them that it was just a test, and would encourage them to keep going. You see he didn’t see them as random drills or as mean people trying to tear him down. He saw them as necessary training to be able to prepare him for the reality of the battlefield. He knew that the sergeants were not attacking him personally and he knew the drills were not trying to ruin his life. He saw them for what they were. That is why every time he was faced with something he would be able to overcome.
Let me encourage you in what you are going through, what I have been through and what we will all go through in the future. It is, and will be a test, keep moving forward. Does that mean that they are not legitimate attacks from the enemy, no. However, the test comes when you are pushed beyond your capabilities, will you push into God’s grace or will you give up? Will you choose to keep the faith and believe that God is good to fulfill his promises, or will you look at the calendar and say, “it’s been too long God has forgotten?” Will you look at your finances and say, “I don’t have enough for this and this and this?” Or will you choose to realize that God was serious when He said in Jeremiah 29:11 that He has an amazing plan for your life?
You see, it’s always a test, sometimes it’s obvious, sometimes it’s not. Regardless, keep moving forward.
It’s just a test, I will move forward.